So This is the New Year.

Currently listening to: Walk Away From A Good Thing - The Bicycles

RESOLUTIONS:
-Continue and expand use of good vocabulary
-Do the best I possibly can in school and ballroom, while managing my time
-Get fit for ballroom, do stretching each day
-Read more
-Drink more water
-Express only my true feelings (exceptions only in dire situations) always in a polite and polished manner
And the last one that WILL be impossible..
-Find an attractive, intellectually stimulating guy and get to know him better WITHOUT jumping into a relationship.

Feelings about 2008:
2008 was definitely interesting, I can say that much. It was a leap year, how could it not be interesting? Now they're supposed to be unlucky, but mine was the opposite. I actually really enjoyed this past year, for once.

Highlights of 2008:
1. Being in Mexico for New Year.
2. Getting my act more or less somewhat together in brief periods during school.
3. Going to Montmartre, going to various art museums, and eating very good crepes in Paris, as well as our tiny hotel room there.
4. Going to Tate Modern, a musical based on Queen, Oxford Street, and Soho in London. Same with the hotel room.
5. Virgin Festival, especially day one, except for seeing my old Humanities teacher both days.
6. Lazing about, eating amazing sushi, drinking the best smoothies, and meeting the sweetest boy in Penticton.. as well as the line I received from some random guy who turned out to be extremely attractive: "I've noticed you're wearing shorts, and so am I.. let's date!"
7. Kasota, especially sailing week even though in my case it would be called failing week. (That one was for you, Alexis)
8. Enjoying a relationship and then ending it.
9. Becoming better friends with better people.
10. Jingle Bell Rock!
11. My two other birthday festivities.
12. Really loving Bob Marley.
13. All my gifts. Especially being invited to the JUNIOR BALLROOM TEAM.

I'm somewhat content with most of the dealings in my life nowadays; I seem to be getting a grip on things. This may also be due to the EXTREME lack of attractive males in my life, hence an increase of focus onto such unromantic things as exponent laws. Said lack may be an indefinite sentence.
See, there is this one guy. But I don't know him too well. What I do know so far, though, is that he actually reads, he takes care of himself, his music taste is amazing, and he definitely makes me laugh. Plus he's really sweet and I would say chivalrous, as well.
The problem is... Let's just say, for privacy's sake, that our lives are different. He is more of the one conquest after another type of guy, and I'm more of the passionate infatuation type of girl. I'm wanting exclusivity, or close to it, and it's almost certain he isn't like that. Along with this, I am extremely jealous in this one area! In every other aspect of my life I am not like this, but when it comes to guys, I am quite possibly the most seething, possessive little bitch there ever was. I cannot STAND when other girls so much as get friendly with the object of my affection. I know it's irrational, and I know it's a fact of life, seeing as I have guy friends too, but I can't help it. It's also a self-esteem thing, because I worry that I am not good enough, that this girl is better than I am, and will sweep him off his feet, leaving me in the dust. I don't put my envy into action, though. That is one thing I stay away from. I just keep it inside, and that's the extent it will ever reach.
So this wonderful, darling boy. I am keeping my distance, because I am worried that I am coming on too strong. But my hope is diminished significantly because I have been waiting... and waiting... and waiting. I would give up completely, but the romantic in me keeps waiting for this guy.
Is it worth it? I'm unsure. But at the moment there are really no other romantic interests in my life. And yes, I am unfortunately one of those people who can't live without romance.
Wish me luck.