So I'm almost through another February..
If anything I am happier than I was last February. I find myself doing a lot of comparisons to previous years this time of year, something about winter makes introspection a lot easier.
What is it about Valentine's Day that really brings out the extremes in people? Personally I noticed people at their most immature, most cynical, or most saccharine states. There were those who were normal, but they were few and far between. Personally my Valentine's Day wasn't too great. Seeing as I thought a boy and I had something special, I was a bit disappointed but not too much. After all, I should ask for what I want, right?
That's the confusing thing about nowadays - is chivalry dead, or is it not? Are people trying to kill it? Now that women can buy their own things and open their own doors, does it mean that men can't do it for them anymore? And what about it going both ways? So many questions..
Since no one knows me on the internet I think it's safe to disclose that yes, I love someone. For the first time. But I'm sure they don't return that feeling, it seems to have been forced out, those words. If there are any older readers out there, think back to the first time you were sure you loved someone. Remember that feeling? Hold it. Don't forget it.
Forever,
N
