I never forget about you, Julian.

Well, another year is officially over. This was one of the special ones, no doubt about it. I think of all my years of school, I cried at school the greatest number of times this year. It was also one of the years I could bear the easiest, of course with help from numerous people who helped make everything better. I've sustained physical and emotional wounds, mostly healed except for the one from making guacamole. My thumbnail is growing back freakishly.
Exams weren't the easiest, not that many people care, but this is my version of the constant Facebook updates and real-life chatter about exam grievances, hope it's easier to swallow. I wouldn't put it on my cereal, but I can take it. (Are you reading this? Eek!)
Virgin Fest post will happen, I promise, the thing is that Virgin Fest itself hasn't happened yet!
It's the time to walk with lilacs brushing past in all their pretty shades, white ones looking like shredded coconuts, violet ones, blue ones, lavender, lavender with white trim, how many colours can there be? I want to see them all. I love walking past all the greenery, touching it, seeing it. Maybe it's just summer in general. Does anyone else feel this way? This euphoria that's almost unstoppable.
Maybe all that stuff that few people take seriously should really be taken seriously be more. I'm part of the minority, though, I need no convincing. I'm a fire sign, I get such an energy boost from just being in bright fiery sunlight. No pale weak winter sunshine for me, no sirree. I'd rather just not have any if it's not passionate. This can be applied to pretty much every other aspect of my life. Maybe this is the way it is for every sign, are they true to their signs in such ways? Is everyone so powerfully influenced, or is it a select group?
Julian, Julian, Julian! It's silly how much I like that name. I want to name my son that, if I ever have a son. Listening to you sing for a year and a half now. Just when you've snuck into a quieter corner of my mind, where the constant music is more distant, I find your music again. Helps me through tough stuff. I never forget about you, Julian. I don't even know why I'm babbling for so bloody long, forgive me, few readers if any. I think it's out of nervousness.
Forever,
N